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Alive, Arthur, and Best Friend: akingandhiswarlock: brolinmerthurendlesslove: #ugh #he’s saying thank you for choosing me even though i know how much your father means to you #and i will love you and protect you forever and always don’t you worry #you were the only one for me and i wouldn’t have it any other way #all with the look in his eyes (via magikalk) Now that I’m watching their faces on repeat, I’m realizing what their looks really mean in this moment. I have no doubt that Arthur protected Merlin from Uther more than once while he was alive; Uther handed out punishments like candy to anyone less than a knight, and we all know Merlin often made mistakes because he’s The Worst Manservant Ever. Even so, I don’t think it ever occurred to Arthur that Uther would kill Merlin for anything. Earlier he asked Merlin why Uther’s ghost would have tried to kill Guinevere, when “he knows how much I love her.” I think he thought the same thing about Merlin. Uther had seen the bond between his son and Merlin a lot more than he’d seen Arthur and Gwen’s love. It was obvious to everyone in the castle how much Merlin and Arthur cared about each other. I think it’s breaking Arthur’s heart right here to realize that Uther really did care more about his legacy than about how Arthur would feel if Merlin, his best friend and closest companion, were to die, when Uther knew the unspoken love his son had for Merlin. And Merlin, just like it says in the tags above, is realizing that Arthur really will put him first when it comes down to it. Arthur didn’t hesitate to send Uther back–didn’t try reasoning or talking to him like he had before. Arthur blew the horn without even stopping to let him finish his sentence, because once his father tried to kill Merlin, he was done with him for good. I think Merlin is seeing, once again, how worthy Arthur is of his love–how brave and strong his king must be to stand up to his father like that, when he’d spent all of his life respecting and fearing Uther. He’s relieved that he was saved and his magic wasn’t found out, but he’s also just so proud and loving Arthur more than ever. Merlin and Arthur is literally just the best love story ever.
Alive, Arthur, and Best Friend: akingandhiswarlock:

brolinmerthurendlesslove:
#ugh #he’s saying thank you for choosing me even though i know how much your father means to you #and i will love you and protect you forever and always don’t you worry #you were the only one for me and i wouldn’t have it any other way #all with the look in his eyes  (via magikalk)
Now that I’m watching their faces on repeat, I’m realizing what their looks really mean in this moment.
I have no doubt that Arthur protected Merlin from Uther more than once while he was alive; Uther handed out punishments like candy to anyone less than a knight, and we all know Merlin often made mistakes because he’s The Worst Manservant Ever. Even so, I don’t think it ever occurred to Arthur that Uther would kill Merlin for anything. Earlier he asked Merlin why Uther’s ghost would have tried to kill Guinevere, when “he knows how much I love her.” I think he thought the same thing about Merlin. Uther had seen the bond between his son and Merlin a lot more than he’d seen Arthur and Gwen’s love. It was obvious to everyone in the castle how much Merlin and Arthur cared about each other. I think it’s breaking Arthur’s heart right here to realize that Uther really did care more about his legacy than about how Arthur would feel if Merlin, his best friend and closest companion, were to die, when Uther knew the unspoken love his son had for Merlin.
And Merlin, just like it says in the tags above, is realizing that Arthur really will put him first when it comes down to it. Arthur didn’t hesitate to send Uther back–didn’t try reasoning or talking to him like he had before. Arthur blew the horn without even stopping to let him finish his sentence, because once his father tried to kill Merlin, he was done with him for good. I think Merlin is seeing, once again, how worthy Arthur is of his love–how brave and strong his king must be to stand up to his father like that, when he’d spent all of his life respecting and fearing Uther. He’s relieved that he was saved and his magic wasn’t found out, but he’s also just so proud and loving Arthur more than ever.
Merlin and Arthur is literally just the best love story ever.

akingandhiswarlock: brolinmerthurendlesslove: #ugh #he’s saying thank you for choosing me even though i know how much your father means to ...

Lazy, Life, and School: People always told me "everything should come easy to you!" "you are such a gifted child" So I worked extra hard to not disappoint anyone. I didn't want people to think they were wrong about me. I wanted to live up to their experctations. You could do so well if you tried a little harder It felt like I worked much harder than the other kids ADHD-ALIEN.com Suddenly, I felt so conceited for thinking I was working hard. I had forgotten to write my name on the paper. My words were missing random letters ADHD-ALIEN.com So I tried again But no matter what I did those careless mistakes kept sneaking in and again I always had issues understanding instructions Everyone else seemed to understand them I have a hard time under- standing half knowledge. IM NOT GOING TO SCHOOL!! Hey, it's time to Just from trying to not have to repeat a year. Looking back, I think I had my first burnout at 16. ADHD-ALIEN. com It was easier at University. I could choose subjects I LOVED But even then, I would just randomly forget things I knew I can't even rely myself. on So no one took me serious ADHD-ALIEN.com stop being lazy S It was as if being good at one that I was just lazy with the others. thing was proof why dont you take ithis seriously 'Everyone else can do this So I tried harder. And worked hard enough to render my Hand useless for 8 Months I had spent so many years trying to figure out what people want me to do That I completely forgot how to know what I want ADHD-ALIEN.com Since I couldn't figure myself out, I just worked more. Taking a break and not meeting those expectations... After all, my entire life was based on expectations fulfilling ....felt worse than death Dear Alien It's not that you can achieve things despite having ADHĎ It's that you can achieve things despite no one believing that you try. faulty We are not stupid, lazy or We are just not seen. ADHD-ALIEN.com adhd-alien: This is what happens to kids with ADHD who, instead of getting help and treatment, get told to try harder.
Lazy, Life, and School: People always told me
 "everything should
 come easy to you!"
 "you
 are such a gifted child"
 So I worked extra hard to
 not disappoint anyone.
 I didn't want people to
 think they were wrong
 about me.
 I wanted to live up to
 their experctations.
 You could do so
 well if you tried
 a little harder
 It felt like I worked
 much harder than
 the other kids
 ADHD-ALIEN.com
 Suddenly, I felt so
 conceited for thinking I
 was working hard.
 I had forgotten to write my
 name on the paper.
 My words were missing
 random letters
 ADHD-ALIEN.com

 So I tried again
 But no matter what I did
 those careless mistakes
 kept sneaking in
 and again
 I always had issues
 understanding instructions
 Everyone else seemed
 to understand them
 I have a hard time under-
 standing half knowledge.
 IM NOT GOING
 TO SCHOOL!!
 Hey, it's time to
 Just from trying to not
 have to repeat a year.
 Looking back, I think I had my first burnout at 16.
 ADHD-ALIEN. com
 It was easier at University.
 I could choose subjects I LOVED
 But even then, I would just
 randomly forget things I knew
 I can't even
 rely
 myself.
 on
 So no one took me serious
 ADHD-ALIEN.com

 stop being
 lazy
 S
 It was as if being good
 at one
 that I was just lazy
 with the others.
 thing
 was proof
 why dont you take
 ithis seriously
 'Everyone else
 can do this
 So I tried harder.
 And worked hard enough to render
 my Hand useless for 8 Months
 I had spent so many years
 trying to figure out what
 people want me to do
 That I completely forgot
 how to know what I want
 ADHD-ALIEN.com
 Since I couldn't figure myself
 out, I just worked more.
 Taking a break and
 not meeting those
 expectations...
 After all, my entire life
 was based on
 expectations
 fulfilling
 ....felt worse than death
 Dear Alien
 It's not that you can
 achieve things despite
 having ADHĎ
 It's that you can achieve
 things despite no one
 believing that you try.
 faulty
 We are not stupid, lazy
 or
 We are just not seen.
 ADHD-ALIEN.com
adhd-alien:



This is what happens to kids with ADHD who, instead of getting help and treatment, get told to try harder.

adhd-alien: This is what happens to kids with ADHD who, instead of getting help and treatment, get told to try harder.

Click, Target, and Tumblr: Step one: Make a line (it can be a bit messy). X Motion Blun Cancel Preview 100% Angle: 46 Pixels Distance: 243 Step two: Add motion blur to line. Step three: Lock layer and paint in a rainbow with a soft brush. Keep the colours light! Step four: Duplicate layer and offset slightly. Layer Style Blending Options General Blending Styles OK Blending Options Blend Mode: Normal Cancel Opacity: Bevel & Emboss New Style... Advanced Blending Contour Fill Opacib Channels: Preview Texture G B R + Stroke Inner Shadow Blend Interior Effects Blend Clipped Layers Transparency Shapes Layer s Group Group Inner Glow Layer Mask Hides Effects Satin Vector Mask Hides Effects Color Overlay + Blend If Gray Gradient Overlay This Layer: 255 Pattern Overlay Top Layer OOuter Glow Underlying Layer: 255 Drop Shadow Layer Style Blending Options General Blending Styles OK Normal Blending Options Blend Mode: Cancel Opacity: Bevel & Emboss New Style... Advanced Blending Contour Fill 100 Preview Texture G B Channels: R Bottom Layer Knockout: None Inner Shadow Blend Interior Effects Blend Clipped Layers Transparency Shapes Layer Layer Mask Hides Effects + s Group Group Inner Glow Satin Vector Mask Hides Effects Color Overlay + Blend If Gradient Overlay + This Layer: 255 Pattern Overlay Outer Glow Underlying Layer: 255 Drop Shadow fx Step five: Open layer style menu and check off the channels as shown. (double click on the layer) Step six: Repeat! If you want to make it a bit brighter, try painting layer set to Overlay with a light colour. over it in a new larndraws: I was asked how I made the rainbow light effect in my last piece, so I put together a quick step by step.
Click, Target, and Tumblr: Step one: Make a line (it can be a bit messy).
 X
 Motion Blun
 Cancel
 Preview
 100%
 Angle: 46
 Pixels
 Distance: 243
 Step two: Add motion blur to line.
 Step three: Lock layer and paint in a
 rainbow with a soft brush. Keep the colours light!

 Step four: Duplicate layer and offset slightly.
 Layer Style
 Blending Options
 General Blending
 Styles
 OK
 Blending Options
 Blend Mode:
 Normal
 Cancel
 Opacity:
 Bevel & Emboss
 New Style...
 Advanced Blending
 Contour
 Fill Opacib
 Channels:
 Preview
 Texture
 G
 B
 R
 +
 Stroke
 Inner Shadow
 Blend Interior Effects
 Blend Clipped Layers
 Transparency Shapes Layer
 s Group
 Group
 Inner Glow
 Layer Mask Hides Effects
 Satin
 Vector Mask Hides Effects
 Color Overlay
 +
 Blend If
 Gray
 Gradient Overlay
 This Layer:
 255
 Pattern Overlay
 Top Layer
 OOuter Glow
 Underlying Layer:
 255
 Drop Shadow
 Layer Style
 Blending Options
 General Blending
 Styles
 OK
 Normal
 Blending Options
 Blend Mode:
 Cancel
 Opacity:
 Bevel & Emboss
 New Style...
 Advanced Blending
 Contour
 Fill
 100
 Preview
 Texture
 G
 B
 Channels: R
 Bottom Layer
 Knockout: None
 Inner Shadow
 Blend Interior Effects
 Blend Clipped Layers
 Transparency Shapes Layer
 Layer Mask Hides Effects
 +
 s Group
 Group
 Inner Glow
 Satin
 Vector Mask Hides Effects
 Color Overlay
 +
 Blend If
 Gradient Overlay
 +
 This Layer:
 255
 Pattern Overlay
 Outer Glow
 Underlying Layer:
 255
 Drop Shadow
 fx
 Step five: Open layer style menu
 and check off the channels as shown.
 (double click on the layer)

 Step six: Repeat! If you want to make it a bit brighter,
 try painting
 layer set to Overlay with a light colour.
 over it in a new
larndraws:

I was asked how I made the rainbow light effect in my last piece, so I put together a quick step by step.

larndraws: I was asked how I made the rainbow light effect in my last piece, so I put together a quick step by step.

Alive, Cats, and Dogs: Saving your pet with CPR Check for breathing and pulse Check pulse using middle and index finger below the wrist, inner thigh (temoral artery). below the ankle or where left elbow touches With pets increasingly being treated like a member of the Areas to check family, many owners are learning emergency techniques like CPR to keep their pet alive before bringing it to a veterinarian. for pulse the chest Look for other warning signs Gums and lips will appear gray- colored. Pupils will be dilated and not responsive to light If there is no breathing and no pulse, begin CPR immediately. Gums Pupils If not breathing, give breath to animal Cats and small dogs Place your mouth over its nose and mouth to blow air in. Medium-large dogs Place your mouth over its nose to blow air in Heimlich maneuver If breath won't go in, airway may be blocked. Turn dog upside down, with its back against your chest. Wrap your arms around the dog and clasp your hands together just below its rib cage (since you're holding the dog upside down, it's above the rib cage, in the abdomen). Using both arms, give five sharp thrusts to the abdomen. Then check its mouth or airway for the object. If you see it, remove it and give two more rescue breaths Start compressions if no pulse Lay animal on right side and place hand over ribs where its elbow touches the chest. Begin compressions. Do not give compressions if dog has pulse. Compressions per breath of air Compress chest Animal size Catsmall dog (Under 30 lbs.) 5 1/2-1 inch Medium-large dog (30-90 lbs.) 1-3 inches 5 Giant dog (over 90 lbs.) 1-3 inches 10 Repeat procedure Stop CPR after 20 minutes. Check pulse after 1 minute and then every few minutes. Continue giving CPR until the animal has a puise and is breathing. soURCE American Red Cross lolzandtrollz: Every Dog Owner Needs To Know This
Alive, Cats, and Dogs: Saving your pet with CPR
 Check for breathing and pulse
 Check pulse using middle and index finger
 below the wrist, inner thigh (temoral artery).
 below the ankle or where left elbow touches
 With pets increasingly being
 treated like a member of the
 Areas to check
 family, many owners are learning
 emergency techniques like CPR
 to keep their pet alive before
 bringing it to a veterinarian.
 for pulse
 the chest
 Look for other
 warning signs
 Gums and lips will appear
 gray- colored.
 Pupils will be dilated and
 not responsive to light
 If there is no breathing and no
 pulse, begin CPR immediately.
 Gums
 Pupils
 If not breathing, give
 breath to animal
 Cats and small dogs
 Place your mouth over its nose
 and mouth to blow air in.
 Medium-large dogs
 Place your mouth over its nose
 to blow air in
 Heimlich maneuver
 If breath won't go in, airway may be blocked.
 Turn dog upside down, with its back against
 your chest. Wrap your arms around the dog
 and clasp your hands together just below its
 rib cage (since you're holding the dog upside
 down, it's above the rib cage, in the
 abdomen). Using both arms, give five sharp thrusts
 to the abdomen. Then check its mouth or airway for the
 object. If you see it, remove it and give two more
 rescue breaths
 Start compressions if no pulse
 Lay animal on right side and place hand over ribs
 where its elbow touches the chest. Begin
 compressions. Do not give compressions
 if dog has pulse.
 Compressions
 per breath
 of air
 Compress
 chest
 Animal size
 Catsmall dog (Under 30 lbs.)
 5
 1/2-1 inch
 Medium-large dog (30-90 lbs.)
 1-3 inches
 5
 Giant dog (over 90 lbs.)
 1-3 inches
 10
 Repeat
 procedure
 Stop CPR
 after 20 minutes.
 Check pulse after 1 minute
 and then every few minutes.
 Continue giving CPR until the
 animal has a puise and is breathing.
 soURCE
 American Red Cross
lolzandtrollz:

Every Dog Owner Needs To Know This

lolzandtrollz: Every Dog Owner Needs To Know This

Advice, Af, and Bad: hm...buns @coolthottie college really be on some other shit "..and it has to be a minimum of 20 pages." You'll be writing a paper this semester" ft @coolthottie/jadasy ruby-white-rabbit: freddieandersen: inkskinned: HOW TO WRITE 20 PAGES (from one girl w/mental illness 2 the rest of u, but please keep in mind all of this is just personal Stuff That Worked for me n u might be different): first of all, and probably most importantly, make that paper about something you actually give a shit about. if you can write an essay on how long shakespeare’s dick is when you’re talking to your friends, that’s a good topic. don’t choose something u don’t care about, you will Want To Die “okay but the only topics are ones i don’t care about” talk 2 ur teacher 99% of the time if you’re like “here’s a well-thought-out thesis can i talk about this instead” they’re like “sure lmao i just couldn’t think of other paper topics to suggest” “they said no” cool find the one u hate the least and try to tie it into something u like. for example i really hated this stupid paper i had to write about a stupid book so i ended up writing about the food inside the book and whether or not it was a historically accurate depiction of food. turns out i fucking love talking about food. i also remade some of the old recipes and brought them in as part of the presentation of my project and people went fuckken nuts bc BREAD. basically i thought about “what motivates me? uh food” and followed that. it was a 45-page book about bread and i looked like a really good student when really i just love bread (somewhere, oprah smiles over me) the 20-pagers are the ones you Actually Cannot Do the night before. i know we all got real fuckken cocky back in hs when we learned how to do 5 pages in one night w/out trying too hard but 1. as a teacher now i can tell u for sure that teachers do know you rushed it, we just Don’t Care bc We’re Not Paid Enough and 2. twenty pages is not the same thing. you need to actually take the time to do it. this is the actual version of “you’re not in hs anymore” DONT lie to yourself and think “it’s fine i’ll do it in one day” you will !! Regret it!!!!  “raquel. raquel. listen to me. do you actually believe i’m capable of time management. raquel i have depression i barely manage to exist.” same. but the truth is that when i started like?? actually following the rules of timelines and taking my time etc it actually really helps mental illness. you don’t feel pressured all the time by a deadline, so your anxiety chills a little bit. small progress being acceptable means that on depression days, you don’t have to worry you’re fucking it all up. when it’s 15 minutes every day (even if it’s only 1 word a day) it feels a lot better. ask the teacher what timeline they’d recommend. they actually Know. always ask if it’s informal or formal (if you can use “I” statements or not). informal essays can rely on personal feelings and are so much easier and trust me if you find out on the day it’s due that you could have written 12 pages about your feelings instead of 12 pages of research, you will Be Very Upset i lie to myself all the time and move the deadline up. i write it in my agenda as at least 2 days before it’s due. surprise!!! i tricked u, self!!! you can’t procrastinate!!  agendas/planners need to be what actually works for you. i liked to prioritize w/colors + keep lists. i really love crossing things off lists. it’s like… a balm. for me, i usually say i have to finish the first 2 things, start the 3rd thing, and “touch” at least half the list. if i finish the whole list i get a prize. also i get to cross off everything which is so satisfying i’m sure it’s someone’s idea of a rush. there’s so many “how to” documents on these that i won’t get into it but frankly?? if you don’t write it down you will not remember it. “yes i will” no you won’t greg. just do it. write it down. write it where u can see it. not there, greg. greg, somewhere good. my friend is smart af and uses a post-it on her laptop. that doesn’t work for me bc i can just? use my hand to cover the anxiety? so choose somewhere good greg. nervous system, skeleton, meat, skin. nervous system is the thesis. skeleton is quotes/data. meat is the analysis of that data. skin is the fancy transitions + beautification.  meat goes on both sides of bone, and skin goes all around. nervous system has to touch everything. do what your teachers have been begging u to do since 3rd grade and start w/an outline. do this while you read/research. i usually have a starter thesis like “lady macbeth is a feminist ICON” then take the quotes i think fit. but if while you’re reading u realize u wanna talk about the use of feminine language and how shakespeare parallels daintiness w/sharpness, u still have a bunch of quotes you can use or not use. this works also w/research papers. just pull what u think is something u wanna talk about. copy-paste it but leave a link to where u got it. then put a bullet point under that says roughly why u mention it if you just write the outline like you’re keeping notes to yourself you’d be amazed how quickly you write the essay bc we get stuck in academic language but it’s easier to translate “this is why bees are the #bomb” into a paragraph. i mean you just rewrite your notes to yourself in academic speech. “The above passage illustrates the growing necessity of pollinators such as bees in an agricultural environment.” keep track of your sources + label them. don’t just write “(SOURCE)” instead if you’re using multiple sources use the lazygirl way which is (SA1) or whatever shorthand u have for each source. then when you need to finish your sources you go to your little source document, find the one labelled SA1 and then “Find+replace” w/the actual source. integrate quotes so it reads w/clarity which means don’t do this but if you’re running late on it and don’t have time to look up the quote u want to fit this situation, technically you can “use any” word you want (56). so yeah “there is” a moral question about it but you “can” make up quotes (79, 90). don’t “actually” do this unless you’re seriously in a crunch. which u shouldn’t be, bc u managed ur time, right? running late part 2 (which again would never happen bc you followed my advice and made a little time table for yourself but anyway if it does somehow magically happen) i really recommend using school computers to do your work. ur surrounded by people who will hold u accountable + u will focus running late pt3 on the day of it being due, around 5 PM, be honest w/yourself and see where you are. if you’re like “it needs 2 more hours” okay. but if you’re like “this is……… not started” email the teacher. they’ll be so much more receptive the earlier you do this in the process. it looks like “i’m genuinely struggling and i hope to finish this on time but i’m worried i won’t” instead of “i started this at 11:58PM and am asking for an extension”. please also just… be honest?  “my teacher won’t accept late work!” they all say that, he probably will, particularly if you have a note from the school therapist being like “lmao she’s got so many mental illnesses idek how to help her” “no he really doesn’t, he doesn’t care” you can file for disability if you have mental illness, and, in fact, you should if it’s something that often stops you from completing work on time. i didn’t bc i found that it just let me procrastinate for a longer time, but having that on file means you can go to the dean. “no!!! raquel you’re not listening i have 2 pages and he doesn’t take late work!!!!!!!!!”  okay. yeah that’s bad. but nerves, skeleton, meat, skin. what is it that you’re struggling with? is it that your can’t find any quotes to back up your thesis? impossible, tbh, you need to be more willing to purposefully misuse quotes (don’t do that). but the better option is to just change the thesis.  “i don’t even have that!!” did you. do the reading? if you even just watched the movie, you probably have an opinion on something even if it’s “this is bad.” you can use that. use why you didn’t like it to write a hate-fueled examination on how whiny the main character is and why u think the author is trying to point out how miserable cis white boys are to deal with.  “i don’t have enough sources!!!” go to wikipedia’s page about it and look @ the sources. try to like actually read some if you have time but frankly in a hurry a student (me) might be compelled to just slap the source in there.  “how the fuck do i analyze this”. u know how ppl agonize over why an actor breathed in a scene. melt into that kind of thinking. you can literally force the words to mean whatever you want. i’ve talked about word choice so specific that i based a 12-page essay on three separate uses of the words “my dear”. i talked about the possessive “my” and how it developed for like 5 of those pages. and always repeat the thesis like a million times. after every analysis you should talk about how it links to the thesis. that is like a free 3 sentences every paragraph. “i did all that and it’s still 3 pages too short” quick ways to Beef Him Up: definitions are great in research papers + essays bc you can talk about either word choice or like the definition of every process used in getting the data. also make the conclusion hella informative (it should answer “what does this mean moving forwards” most of the time, tie it into modern life or into the past). thicken ur intro with “here’s a quote from this guy about it and what he personally felt about acid-base titrations”, use a paragraph to talk about the history of the data/book, use a paragraph to talk about the modern reception of the data/book. also look for where you can use two words instead of one even tho like grammatically don’t do that. worst comes to worst, brevity is the soul of wit. most teachers prefer concise over rambling and all over the place. if you choose to scoot under the page limit, tho, your writing etc needs to be exceptionally clean. frankly i’ve only done this once and it was terrifying make computer read it aloud 2 u before u submit. “raquel….. i can’t look at it anymore”. you’re not looking @ it, you’re discovering you wrote “breath” not “breathe” and u need to change it tutoring centers exist, i worked in one, and this is how i know they actually Help and have Good Ideas ask about extra credit and do it tbh good luck…. breathe. and remember u are astronomically more important than a grade could ever be. do you have trouble writing words on paper but you know what you want to say? because that’s my personal form of useless perfectionism. like, you can tell your friend all about what you’re planning on writing, and talk about it for like 20 minutes straight? make notes for imaginary slides for an imaginary presentation on the topic oops you have an outline now! your imaginary slides? paragraphs (or if ur paper is long af, each imaginary bullet point is a paragraph and each imaginary slide is a couple pages) credit for this tip goes to my therapist. thanks amy. u solved paper writing for me and at least seven of my friends Partial credit is better than no credit at all. Only have 5 pages the day it’s due? TURN IT IN. It’s better than a zero if the teacher won’t work with you on an extension or late work
Advice, Af, and Bad: hm...buns
 @coolthottie
 college really be on some other shit
 "..and it has to be a
 minimum of 20
 pages."
 You'll be writing a
 paper this semester"
 ft
 @coolthottie/jadasy
ruby-white-rabbit:

freddieandersen:
inkskinned:

HOW TO WRITE 20 PAGES (from one girl w/mental illness 2 the rest of u, but please keep in mind all of this is just personal Stuff That Worked for me n u might be different):
first of all, and probably most importantly, make that paper about something you actually give a shit about. if you can write an essay on how long shakespeare’s dick is when you’re talking to your friends, that’s a good topic. don’t choose something u don’t care about, you will Want To Die
“okay but the only topics are ones i don’t care about” talk 2 ur teacher 99% of the time if you’re like “here’s a well-thought-out thesis can i talk about this instead” they’re like “sure lmao i just couldn’t think of other paper topics to suggest”
“they said no” cool find the one u hate the least and try to tie it into something u like. for example i really hated this stupid paper i had to write about a stupid book so i ended up writing about the food inside the book and whether or not it was a historically accurate depiction of food. turns out i fucking love talking about food. i also remade some of the old recipes and brought them in as part of the presentation of my project and people went fuckken nuts bc BREAD. basically i thought about “what motivates me? uh food” and followed that. it was a 45-page book about bread and i looked like a really good student when really i just love bread (somewhere, oprah smiles over me)
the 20-pagers are the ones you Actually Cannot Do the night before. i know we all got real fuckken cocky back in hs when we learned how to do 5 pages in one night w/out trying too hard but 1. as a teacher now i can tell u for sure that teachers do know you rushed it, we just Don’t Care bc We’re Not Paid Enough and 2. twenty pages is not the same thing. you need to actually take the time to do it. this is the actual version of “you’re not in hs anymore” DONT lie to yourself and think “it’s fine i’ll do it in one day” you will !! Regret it!!!! 
“raquel. raquel. listen to me. do you actually believe i’m capable of time management. raquel i have depression i barely manage to exist.” same. but the truth is that when i started like?? actually following the rules of timelines and taking my time etc it actually really helps mental illness. you don’t feel pressured all the time by a deadline, so your anxiety chills a little bit. small progress being acceptable means that on depression days, you don’t have to worry you’re fucking it all up. when it’s 15 minutes every day (even if it’s only 1 word a day) it feels a lot better.
ask the teacher what timeline they’d recommend. they actually Know.

always ask if it’s informal or formal (if you can use “I” statements or not). informal essays can rely on personal feelings and are so much easier and trust me if you find out on the day it’s due that you could have written 12 pages about your feelings instead of 12 pages of research, you will Be Very Upset
i lie to myself all the time and move the deadline up. i write it in my agenda as at least 2 days before it’s due. surprise!!! i tricked u, self!!! you can’t procrastinate!! 
agendas/planners need to be what actually works for you. i liked to prioritize w/colors + keep lists. i really love crossing things off lists. it’s like… a balm. for me, i usually say i have to finish the first 2 things, start the 3rd thing, and “touch” at least half the list. if i finish the whole list i get a prize. also i get to cross off everything which is so satisfying i’m sure it’s someone’s idea of a rush. there’s so many “how to” documents on these that i won’t get into it but frankly?? if you don’t write it down you will not remember it. “yes i will” no you won’t greg. just do it. write it down. write it where u can see it. not there, greg. greg, somewhere good. my friend is smart af and uses a post-it on her laptop. that doesn’t work for me bc i can just? use my hand to cover the anxiety? so choose somewhere good greg.
nervous system, skeleton, meat, skin. nervous system is the thesis. skeleton is quotes/data. meat is the analysis of that data. skin is the fancy transitions + beautification.  meat goes on both sides of bone, and skin goes all around. nervous system has to touch everything. do what your teachers have been begging u to do since 3rd grade and start w/an outline. do this while you read/research. i usually have a starter thesis like “lady macbeth is a feminist ICON” then take the quotes i think fit. but if while you’re reading u realize u wanna talk about the use of feminine language and how shakespeare parallels daintiness w/sharpness, u still have a bunch of quotes you can use or not use. this works also w/research papers. just pull what u think is something u wanna talk about. copy-paste it but leave a link to where u got it. then put a bullet point under that says roughly why u mention it
if you just write the outline like you’re keeping notes to yourself you’d be amazed how quickly you write the essay bc we get stuck in academic language but it’s easier to translate “this is why bees are the #bomb” into a paragraph. i mean you just rewrite your notes to yourself in academic speech. “The above passage illustrates the growing necessity of pollinators such as bees in an agricultural environment.”
keep track of your sources + label them. don’t just write “(SOURCE)” instead if you’re using multiple sources use the lazygirl way which is (SA1) or whatever shorthand u have for each source. then when you need to finish your sources you go to your little source document, find the one labelled SA1 and then “Find+replace” w/the actual source.
integrate quotes so it reads w/clarity which means don’t do this but if you’re running late on it and don’t have time to look up the quote u want to fit this situation, technically you can “use any” word you want (56). so yeah “there is” a moral question about it but you “can” make up quotes (79, 90). don’t “actually” do this unless you’re seriously in a crunch. which u shouldn’t be, bc u managed ur time, right?
running late part 2 (which again would never happen bc you followed my advice and made a little time table for yourself but anyway if it does somehow magically happen) i really recommend using school computers to do your work. ur surrounded by people who will hold u accountable + u will focus
running late pt3 on the day of it being due, around 5 PM, be honest w/yourself and see where you are. if you’re like “it needs 2 more hours” okay. but if you’re like “this is……… not started” email the teacher. they’ll be so much more receptive the earlier you do this in the process. it looks like “i’m genuinely struggling and i hope to finish this on time but i’m worried i won’t” instead of “i started this at 11:58PM and am asking for an extension”. please also just… be honest? 
“my teacher won’t accept late work!” they all say that, he probably will, particularly if you have a note from the school therapist being like “lmao she’s got so many mental illnesses idek how to help her”
“no he really doesn’t, he doesn’t care” you can file for disability if you have mental illness, and, in fact, you should if it’s something that often stops you from completing work on time. i didn’t bc i found that it just let me procrastinate for a longer time, but having that on file means you can go to the dean.
“no!!! raquel you’re not listening i have 2 pages and he doesn’t take late work!!!!!!!!!”  okay. yeah that’s bad. but nerves, skeleton, meat, skin. what is it that you’re struggling with? is it that your can’t find any quotes to back up your thesis? impossible, tbh, you need to be more willing to purposefully misuse quotes (don’t do that). but the better option is to just change the thesis. 
“i don’t even have that!!” did you. do the reading? if you even just watched the movie, you probably have an opinion on something even if it’s “this is bad.” you can use that. use why you didn’t like it to write a hate-fueled examination on how whiny the main character is and why u think the author is trying to point out how miserable cis white boys are to deal with. 
“i don’t have enough sources!!!” go to wikipedia’s page about it and look @ the sources. try to like actually read some if you have time but frankly in a hurry a student (me) might be compelled to just slap the source in there. 
“how the fuck do i analyze this”. u know how ppl agonize over why an actor breathed in a scene. melt into that kind of thinking. you can literally force the words to mean whatever you want. i’ve talked about word choice so specific that i based a 12-page essay on three separate uses of the words “my dear”. i talked about the possessive “my” and how it developed for like 5 of those pages. and always repeat the thesis like a million times. after every analysis you should talk about how it links to the thesis. that is like a free 3 sentences every paragraph.
“i did all that and it’s still 3 pages too short” quick ways to Beef Him Up: definitions are great in research papers + essays bc you can talk about either word choice or like the definition of every process used in getting the data. also make the conclusion hella informative (it should answer “what does this mean moving forwards” most of the time, tie it into modern life or into the past). thicken ur intro with “here’s a quote from this guy about it and what he personally felt about acid-base titrations”, use a paragraph to talk about the history of the data/book, use a paragraph to talk about the modern reception of the data/book. also look for where you can use two words instead of one even tho like grammatically don’t do that.
worst comes to worst, brevity is the soul of wit. most teachers prefer concise over rambling and all over the place. if you choose to scoot under the page limit, tho, your writing etc needs to be exceptionally clean. frankly i’ve only done this once and it was terrifying
make computer read it aloud 2 u before u submit. “raquel….. i can’t look at it anymore”. you’re not looking @ it, you’re discovering you wrote “breath” not “breathe” and u need to change it
tutoring centers exist, i worked in one, and this is how i know they actually Help and have Good Ideas
ask about extra credit and do it tbh
good luck…. breathe. and remember u are astronomically more important than a grade could ever be.


do you have trouble writing words on paper but you know what you want to say? because that’s my personal form of useless perfectionism. 
like, you can tell your friend all about what you’re planning on writing, and talk about it for like 20 minutes straight?
make notes for imaginary slides for an imaginary presentation on the topic
oops you have an outline now! your imaginary slides? paragraphs (or if ur paper is long af, each imaginary bullet point is a paragraph and each imaginary slide is a couple pages)
credit for this tip goes to my therapist. thanks amy. u solved paper writing for me and at least seven of my friends


Partial credit is better than no credit at all. Only have 5 pages the day it’s due? TURN IT IN. It’s better than a zero if the teacher won’t work with you on an extension or late work

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